Thursday, September 11, 2008

Sometimes I can do nothing but sit in awe...

Hmmm... Just feel the need to share some things with you that have been making me feel a renewed sense of joy this week... Some things that make me stand in awe of my Creator and the amazing things He allows this heart to experience...

Habakkuk 1:5 "Look at the nations and watch— and be utterly amazed. For I am going to do something in your days that you would not believe, even if you were told." OH YEAH!!!!!!!!!!

At the beginning of this week, Galen asked me to prepare some reports for him, so I did... What I discovered caused a new stirring and excitement in my heart... I'll try to sum it up below... There were other things on the report, but these two figures reminded me of WHY I'm here... It's sweet.

From 2007:
No. of New Fellowships/Bible Studies/Churches
283
No. of New Believers (not just raising their hands, but INVOLVED in church life)
9576

And all this based on programs I am privileged enough to work with. It's so cool, it makes me want to sing His praises. These figures represent about half of the programs we work with as some don't record this info and some were still on outreach when we were collecting reports. It amazes me that today, I get to SERVE a group of such amazing people... Such amazing ministers... Such amazing servants of God... It humbles me really...

This past week I was able to begin a new study by Joyce Meyers called, "Battlefield of the Mind" with some girls from the last study I did and some new ones. There's not a whole lot sweeter in life than fellowship and growth with old friends and new ones. I'm excited to just BE with these women and learn about them and love on them! Nate began a 25 week study on "Quest for authentic manhood" (or something like that...) and I feel God calling me to pray for him while he's there. The challenge is that my study is Tuesday nights and his study is EARLY Wednesday morning, but I think God will give me grace when my heart is to pray for my husband!?!? Yeah!

I feel like God is challenging me a lot lately and perhaps some of my friends, too about marriage/family... The challenge to me personally is this: why are we so much nicer to people we don't know well or have much contact with? Why is it so easy to be unkind to those we love the most? I can think back to childhood (okay, today, too) and how I treated my family, how I treat my husband and I wonder why... Even in the smallest ways... The frustration in my mind so easily transfers into the tone of my voice (my mom is probably nodding her head so hard it might just fall off :)) My questions come from my prideful heart (thinking I KNOW so much more, so the question is coming from pride, not from wanting to know...) So the challenge I feel from God, especially as it relates to my family and especially my marriage is this: be kinder to them than anyone else. Don't settle for the world's standard of love... Aim for His. Yep. That's a big challenge, but I think a good one, when I think of the state of marriages in our world. This is such a vastly used section of Scripture, but it's really the basis of this challenge for me...

1 Corinthians 13:
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. 13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

I could write a book about this... Maybe I'll spare you for now... But my heart is stirring!

Nate and I have been experiencing a lot of joy in our marriage and I'm so grateful for that! It astounds me really that life could have gotten this much sweeter with marriage. But that's part of God's plan, right!?!?! It's so much fun to learn and grow together and experience God together. I am continually reminded of what a blessing it is to be with such a strong, kind, loving man. It's rare to experience this, I know... And I don't take it for granted!

I went shopping the other day and am so grateful we have enough money to eat, and to eat well. I thought these delicious nectarines looked beautiful on our cool tray we got for our wedding... I thank God for His provision for us... I miss my mom and sister so much and it's hard being so far away from them. My sister decided to stay on for at least two more years in Switzerland and I'm excited for her life there (as she really seems to enjoy it!), but do wish she'd come home sometimes, too! It's just hard sometimes. But I'm glad that the holidays are coming up and I can see them soon! YIPPEEEE!

It's fun to get to know Nate's family a bit better. I look forward to more time with them, becoming family as well.

I'm so grateful for my friends... I have such a great crew of people around me here, across the US, around the world. They are inspiring and amazing and challenging.

Last night, Nate and I had the privilege to have dinner with his former coworker, her husband and their cute kiddos. I didn't know them really at all, Nate didn't know the husband, but it turned out to be a great night and as we got to know them, I was amazed at how much variation in our lives God creates. It's so cool to find similiarities and differences and unique way we are shaped. I enjoyed myself so much and I look forward to more interaction with them!

Okay, so I know this became quite long, but I just had to share my appreciation. God is so good. I can't even count sometimes how often I'm simply in AWE... As I look at WHAT and WHEN and HOW and WHY God has directed my steps, I am amazed and SO GRATEFUL.