Cheerful

My husband returns today from his first out of town work trip since we got married. We survived :) I'm excited to see him. He sent me a little cheer yesterday to my office. It was so sweet to receive flowers. Gerbera daisies are one of my all-time favorite flowers. They just seem so bright and cheerful! I know, I'm spoiled... I like it, though.

I went to the doctor yesterday, to find out, that I'm in fact... Stressed. He gave me an assignment to journal and try to figure out better balance and to allow myself to decompress. So I will. He said other stuff, too. But that's the main part. That through praying and journaling, and allowing myself to process instead of "survive" I should be able to help my body not take the brunt of the stress. I'm sure going to try it. Beats taking medicine! He also told me I need to learn to relax, turn my brain off a bit... Easier said than done sometimes.

Thank you for continuing to pray for me. There are so many changes and big things happening in my life with marriage, ministry, etc. that if I don't rely completely on God, I'm going to be in trouble. I'm on such a learning curve. Trying to remember my identity is in God alone...

Love you,

Jenny

A little fun and stress-relief - Dr.'s Orders :)

I went to the chiropractor last week, feeling all sorts out of whack. He finished his adjustment, then stood me up, looked me in the eye, and quoted the Scripture over me, "do not be anxious for anything..." and told me that I need to release whatever is stressing me out and go have some fun. He then told Nate and I that we need to get away. So we did. We went on an impromptu 2 month-aversary trip to the Poconos. Friday, upon arriving home from work, we packed up the car in under an hour and were on our way. We made it to our retreat, campsite number 360something, built a fire, made some dinner, and started our quest for relaxation.

We only stayed for the night, and into the next day, but from the looks of things, I was pretty relaxed. Hammocks are awesome. So are hubands who agree to be spontaneous and go camping on a moment's notice :) Love it.

We saw a large boulder field. Literally a field of boulders. Odd.

Oh, I also figured out why I'm stressed. Besides lots of big changes in my life (marriage being a big one, even though it's completely amazing, it's still a transition). Work has been crazy. Not like running around crazy, but a sustained for over a year sort of crazy... I had a great time of talking with my boss this past week, and it was good to discuss things. I feel better now, and I am so glad I'm here! It's a joy (if I remember to let it be) to work at such a rapidly growing pace. It's hard sometimes, though, so we are praying for an assistant. We need one desperately. I am once again in awe that God allows me to join Him in this work. What a blessing!

One of my favorite things about my job is that we pray together. Not every once in a while, but EVERY DAY! Today during our lunch as a staff, Linda shared the verse out of Corinthians that talks about having our faces unveiled. She shared that it's not a one time thing, but that we continually need to be unveiled for God's glory. It was a good reminder. She then sent us off for 1/2 hour to get alone with God and to ask for His revelation to anything that might be keeping us from total freedom. Pretty sweet.

I have been dealing with a lot of fatigue and recently some really intense headaches since my trip in the winter to Eth./India. So I will return to the doctor tomorrow to see if there are any repercussions from the nasty parasite issue. My system is noticeably konked out. I have not been sharing this widely, as I've been trying to remain positive and trying to learn to trust God for complete healing. But Nate and Galen both feel I need to get some blood work done and some extra tests, so I will do that.

Last week, our boss shared the following verses with us out of Psalm 62: One thing God has spoken, two things have I heard: that you, O God, are strong, and that you, O Lord, are loving.

AMEN! I thank God today for His strength and for His love. He is awesome in every way.

Biking in the rain (downpour)

We had so much fun this weekend playing with my new bike and looking through out wedding photos to pick which ones we liked and will have edited :) They are great and I'd say, Daniel did a fantastic job!

For our 8 week-a-versary yesterday, we took off to Mt. Gretna where we rode the rail to trail for 2.5 miles into the cute little town of Mt. Gretna. Nate had the camera, and I forgot to steal it from him... until our drive home... My new bike (which is such a blessing and was a great deal!!!) did great and was SO COMFORTABLE and fun to ride! We got a great deal on it from a great bike shop called Shirk's in East Earl. (for those of you who live near here, a little secret is that the bikes upstairs, are brand new, but last year's models and can be up to 15% off...)

We had some ice cream at this fun place called the Jigger Shop and I have to say, it was packed for a Sunday early evening. We decided we'll have to return sometime soon! Nate braved it and got the Jigger (which was a big sundae!)

On our way home, it started raining, but we decided to ride back anyway. Little did we know, it would be a downpour of sorts and we'd be pretty much soaked to the core when we got back to the car. The return 2.5 miles went by much more quickly! (even though we couldn't see through the rain very well...)

I hooped and hollered in the rain. How often since we were little, have we taken the time to delight in a great, cold, wet rain-soaked bike ride? Not often enough for me :)

And last week, we were blessed to hang out with the crew from (mostly) Colorado who all live here now. It was a great time celebrating with the Sandersons, Weavers, and the Hess'. What a joy to be connected to so many wonderful friends! We saw a very sad sight on our way out... I don't know this poor lawn mowers story, but it appears to have died... It's been mowed around, though... SO maybe it's really dead... It was sad, but it gave us the giggles... Maybe we will have to help them fix it...

Just needed to share my thanksgiving...

So I am not even half way through the day, and I just have to share how blessed I feel. Why? You ask... Well...

• I got to wake up this morning and see my handsome husband! What a great guy God has blessed me with!
• Said handsome husband has taken it upon himself to bless me each morning with coffee, so the first thing he did was to go downstairs to make me some of my favorite coffee! Seriously, for someone who didn't really know how to just a month point five ago... he's really good! Mmmm...
• I got to work today to be blessed by a sad email (?!?!?!) That's weird, right? No. The email was sad, because the little boy I helped name in My-nmar is sick and in the hospital for at least a month, but his parents, God-loving and trusting, are not anxious, even though he might die. I named him Joshua Nathan -God's messenger and God's gift. I believe there's a call on his life!
• I got paid today :). What does that mean? God's favor and grace on my life is amazing. People (many people) sacrifice so I can do this amazing work God has called me to!
• I went to the Post Office today. Now, here's something not everyone in the country can be thankful for... We have the NICEST people working at our post office. The last TWO TIMES I've gone, I've prayed for my favorite lady and I've gotten to go to her window. Awesome!

All this to say, God is in the big things and the little things, constantly reminding us of His great love for us.

JOY in my journey...

I was recently challenged as a man came to share his life and journey with us as a staff... You see, it was a staff equipping day, but it turned out to be a "life giving" day for me... He was sharing how we have to be listeners, learners, then share the truth in love.

I was listening to this man teach how to relate to people of other religions when I asked him how to relate to those in my life of different religions. They will see the JOY and LOVE. As soon as he told me that they would see my JOY, I was impacted by this and broke down crying during our prayer time.

While I didn't share this with anyone until later that night when I shared it with my husband, I had to repent to God. I repented for believing the lie that to be spiritually mature, I had to be quiet, reserved, serious. I let go of the JOY God gave to me for the lie of being distinguished... I believed that I had to listen to those who think being quiet and reserved is the right way... So many times in my life I've been told I'm too joyful, too happy...

Well, yes. I have survived much. I need to have JOY. God gave it to me. It is His precious gift to me... After years and years of trials, and struggles, I could be bitter and angry, but He gave me the gift of JOY and I almost threw it away for the world. Some would say they don't see me as having little joy, but it's not the abundant JOY of my heart... It's the watered down, simplified joy. The kind that comes from feeling I need to muffle it...

So on Wednesday, I committed to God and myself that I will return to the JOY God has given to me.... I will return to being the person HE wants me to be, not what my "world" tells me I should be. Yes, I will listen to wisdom and counsel, but I will unleash the long-locked away JOY that is inside me desperate to rise up and show the world His love...

Annual ??? Fourth of July Camping/Beach Trip

Well, we did it again. Bradley Beach for the Fourth of July with some of our very favorite people! And my very first camping trip as a married woman - woop!

We headed out Thursday after work to set up camp, get ready for the weekend, and just enjoy nature! Nate worked hard to cut down a tree for our firewood (oak, we think, so it was HARD). I worked at setting up camp and cooking. I do love to cook, even in the wilderness :)

Our friends (Luke, Janine, Josh, Rosemary) arrived by 9:00 and we enjoyed some burgers and dogs. Thankfully we ate most of the brownies before the rascally racoon snuck off with the rest in the middle of the night :)

We woke up Friday and lounged around the campsite before heading to Bradley Beach! We do love this beach so much! The ocean! The sand between your toes! Friends! Cheese! Watermelon! It was awesome. Oh, except, like last year, the water was SUPER COLD! So we didn't brave it too much, except our fish friend Luke, who is crazy... Sometimes... We got to catch up with the Landis' and Brennan's, too, which is always a treat! Such dear people!

After an evening of S'mores, food (very little bread and buns, thanks to aforementioned rascally racoon who CHEWED OPEN our very hefty camping box - you know the ones, the rubbermaid ones... yeah... R.A.S.C.A.L.!!!!), and talking by the fire, we retired for the night, only to be awakened by a big rain storm! So Nate and I ran to the guys/girls tents and slept in there for the night.

We were going to go to the beach again, but laziness or intelligence, made us decide to head home early, which I'm glad we did. Putting stuff away always takes a long time! Oh, but it's SO WORTH IT!

God is so good, His creation is awesome and His love is unending. I'm enjoying being challenged daily by His life and by His love. I don't know why He chooses to allow me to experience this life, but I do love it so much. I am challenged today to live a life more grateful. Even for the things that bug me. So I will try. On His strength....

Am I Different?

So, I'm back at work, back in my calling, but with a new name and a different life... I think I'm supposed to feel different, like my world is completely different, but I don't. I am now a wife to an incredible man, no longer living alone, but I am still me. My passions are still the same, but with some new ones added in, my call is the same, with some new ones added in, but I am still me. I am blessed to be able to be with a man who loves me for me and who challenges me to push beyond who I am today to be better tomorrow. The greatest news is that I don't deserve any of this, but God blesses me simply because He can and He's good.

I am back in this passion... This calling I get to live out day by day. I returned to work yesterday, so excited for this amazing job I get to do. It's such a huge blessing to work here. I was welcomed back and it was such a joy to receive congratulations from coworkers here and around the world.

I can't stop thinking about some things... I can't stop thanking God for these incredible blessings. The gifts that He just keeps lavishing on me... I can't stop thanking God for people's incredible generosity. Never before in my life have I experienced such an outpouring of love from people. The words of encouragement, blessing, joy, and acts of service I have received have been astounding. The generosity of gifts to bless us as we begin our life together have almost overwhelmed me. Then I return to work and I have receipts in my box from my generous supporters and I'm once again reminded of all the people who pray for me, support me, and bless me to be able to do this job. To be able to be part of the big picture, of what God is doing in the nations. I am in awe. Thank you all as my friends, family, and supporters for standing with me so faithfully. I couldn't do this without you and I'm so grateful.

The wedding day was perfect, beautiful, more than I could have asked for. I didn't really grow up dreaming of my wedding. But if I had, that would have been it. The sun was shining, there was a light breeze, it was warm, but not too hot. I was surrounded by so many I love. As Nate and I shared our vows that day, I was amazed at the love of Christ in that place. His glory was on us. It was one of the greatest experiences of my life. Our hearts' desire was to honor God and I think it worked! The words spoken, the worship, the ceremony, all of it was just wonderful. So many people poured themselves out to bless us that day. And I'm still amazed at the blessings that continue.

I say all of this to note that I know I'm blessed, I don't take that for granted, and I know Who to thank for these blessings... I thank God for each one of you who have blessed my life...

Our wedding verse and a verse we hold dear as we begin this journey together is Isaiah 26:8 - "Yes, Lord, walking in the way of Your laws, we wait for You; Your name and renown are the desire of our hearts."

I pray He finds our hearts ready for Him...

Some wedding pics...

Hey all,

In case you're interested in some wedding photos, you can click: http://picasaweb.google.com/nateandjenny.blogspot.com

I'll try to post an update if/when I get caught up here... Ha.

Blessings!

Jenny

All I can say... My limited words... Cannot express...

Wow!

I stand amazed right now... God is so good, so faithful, so loving and definitely so patient with me...

This year, so far, has been filled with travels to Ethiopia and India and connecting to many friends and coworkers who are radically in love with Jesus, a parasite (not so friendly) problem I picked up in Ethiopia, and carried with me to India and then home again... A trip out west to ski and get engaged, wedding planning, missing out on a trip to Colombia due to the nasty parasite (try explaining to me why I couldn't go on the trip, why it was safest for me to stay here, when so many I have grown to love were there, just a plane ride away... I cried every time I thought of it for days...), a visit from my mom and sister over Easter weekend, and all that before the first quarter of the year ended.

My trips to Ethiopia and India, once again, made me fall more in love with God, more in love with those He has created and called into a love relationship with Him, and a renewed sense of duty and calling for the 1.8 billion who have never even had a chance to choose Jesus... I am heartbroken again, at the hopelessness... At the same time, I am alive in the truth that God is sovereign and absolutely beautiful. He wants their hearts. He loves them with a passion we cannot understand as humans. I am delighted as His undending love envelops me. I am delighted that He is allowing me to work for Him in this role... I love it!

I came home from the trips honestly very overwhelmed. Three years ago, when I started, there were 20 programs, and now there are almost 100. Lord, what are you doing? Lord, can I handle this? His answer is always, "I am calling the nations into their inheritance. And yes, you can handle this, if you remember to rely on Me.". Ah, yes. Rely on Him. I'm still trying to understand that... I can no longer remember everyone's names at the meetings, but their faces, their stories, are undoubtedly etched on my heart... The testimonies of God's grace and goodness are too, and I am in awe. Truly in awe. God is amazng!

I am taking a Bible Study right now called "A Woman More Precious than Jewels" and I am challenged. The writer continually turns our eyes and hearts to the Lord, reminding us that submission to our husbands doesn't come easily and cannot come if we are not submitted to God. She also reminds us that we never sin against man until we have first sinned against God (ouch!). Loving the men in our lives comes from our heart to God. Do we really trust Him? If so, why is it so hard to trust the men God calls into our lives? Why do we try to change them? Aren't they created for God's glory? Didn't He bless us with them? It is not our job. God, help me as I prepare for marriage, to continually trust God with my life and with Nate's life. He alone is worthy and He alone can do it. God wants the best for our lives, I just know it!

My friends and mom and sister held a bridal shower for me last night. I can honestly say it will go down as one of my favorite nights of my life... So wonderful... I sat there, surrounded by 30 women, all who love me, as they poured out advice, wisdom, encouragement, etc. onto me... I am in awe that God has chosen to give me so many who love me... Who am I? It is a gift.

This life that God gives me, I am reminded as we celebrate the Easter season, is nothing short of a miracle. The gift of knowing Him, of loving Him, and of being loved by Him is astonishing. It blows my mind... God, Jesus, would die for me... He wants to be Lord and Savior to so many more! How wonderful. How tragic. I hope they can hear... I desperately want them to hear... My heart longs to know I will see them in heaven... My heart, however, cannot fathom the depths of God's heart for them... It must ache.

Nate and I are working through our premarital counseling right now and it has been so good. Hard, but good. I like it. I am challenged. In the first week, we wrote out our individual missions. This week, we got to sit down and dream together. What will God call us to? We think He will use us for sharing His love, building up the broken-hearted here in the US and around the world. It's exciting to me to be with a man who is not afraid of living cross-culturally, or counter-culturally. He is not afraid of marrying a woman who travels and lives a somewhat odd existence (by the world's standards), whose calling is a bit radical. I like it! Who knows what God will do with us? We do know for now, and always, we will hopefully remain faithful to the One who is worthy... With His help... With His help.

I love you all, thank you for your love, your friendship, your challenge in my life... I am in love with God and I am definitely in love with the Jesus I see in you... You are with me...

I think I will count this as a year where I begin to understand just a bit more of God's love for me... It is overwhelmingly sweet. I love Him.

Jenny

PS - wedding planning is not stressful, if you don't let it be :) Oh, and if you're surrounded by AMAZING people :)

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